Hello March, Hello Internet

I've been gone for a month! Not gone from home - just gone from the internet. I have been recovering. Recovering from JANUARY! Yes internet, I have just experienced THE WORST JANUARY EVER!

I had to change my fearLESS banner. I think God took it as a dare. Like "So you think you are going to worry less?  Well how about now? and now? and now?"

I try to stay optimistic and keep a positive attitude. In that spirit, I can honestly say that I am so grateful that no one is dead or seriously ill and Gary's job seems stable. I am so thankful for that. When I say that it was the worst January ever, well it could have been so much worse. But when you are going through something, it can be hard to keep that perspective.

It was not one big horrible thing that happened. It was more like a bad thing, then another bad thing, then another bad thing, then the final bad thing (although you don't know it is the final one until the whole thing is over).

But ahhhh...... February. Things settled down in February. No more bad news. I was able to get enough distance from the bad things that they no longer seemed impossible. Actually, when I look back on things now I somehow think "Why was I so freaked out?" But I am talking from distance and perspective now, internet. 20/20 hindsight they say.

I don't like to be Debbie Downer on my blog. Who wants to read about someone whining about their life? I want to be witty. I want to be informative. I want to write things in such a way that when I read them over in a few years, everything look so much better than it actually was.

Oh stop judging! We all do it. How many photos do you have of your kid's first birthday? How many photos do you have of your grandmother's funeral? 'Nuff said.

Anyway, in the next few days I will blog about a couple of things that happened in January. Not because I am trying to be more honest about the past. (By the way, forgetting the bad things in the past make it so much easier to forgive.) The things I will blog about are things that are going to effect my future. They are now a big part of my life and I can't just ignore them here.

So, I am back. I am writing. I am taking pictures. I am creating AND I am getting ready to go on a trip to London! Woot! Woot!

Comments

[Cameron]

Woo hoo, so glad you're back! Can't wait to hear more from you. :)

[Joyce]

Been watching and waiting. So glad things are good enough for you to write again.