Thank you to everyone with their sweet, encouraging comments about my last post. Not just on this blog, but in person and through e-mail. Sometimes you think you are all alone in your feelings, especially the ones that you feel horrible to even think, much less admit to anyone. Then you find out that so many people are going through the EXACT SAME THING. It certainly helps to put things into perspective.
I may not be at the best place in my life right now, but I never lose sight of the fact that I am truly, truly blessed an lucky.
There are a couple of other things that are contributing to my melancholy.
1. I actually am hormonal right now.
2. I am extremely tired and stretched very thin. You see, when school starts in August, there are lists posted for parents to volunteer to help in the classroom throughout the year. Well, in August, April seems soooooooooo far away. I always think that I am too busy in the Fall and Christmas, so I will do a lot in the Spring. Remember I have three boys in three different classrooms. So I sign up for lots of things and then comes April when I am shocked to find out that I said I would this and this and this and this and this......
I am completely responsible for a lot of thing that need to be done in the next three weeks. I am completely overwhelmed.
This isn't the first year I have made this mistake. I did it last year too and ended up spending a month at the beach feeling so shell shocked that I couldn't even watch TV!
I WILL NOT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE NEXT YEAR!
I am going to set a firm number of things that I will do throughout the year and stick to it.
I have also realized that although I now have household/nanny help for almost 30 hours a week, I am still freaked out. That is because I have filled the extra time that Karen has allowed me to have with more stuff to do with the kids and school. The extra time was supposed to allow me to breathe. I must work on this problem. I want to fill the extra time (at least most of it) with creativity - art, writing and photography.
So, to go back to my soldier at war analogy, maybe I could say now that he is still committed to a job he does not like, but he is being transfered from the front lines to a resort city in Dubai. He would rather be home and doing his own thing, but it is not the hell and horror of war.
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My post title suggests a postcard and here it is.
London has sidewalk stands selling beautiful flowers on what seems like every corner. I'm always drawn to them and these caught my eye on the last day of my trip. It was all I could do to keep myself from buying them, but I knew I couldn't take them with me.
I have never in my life seen these round flowers. The signs says they are Rununculas and they may have become my new favorite flower. I love their round layers.
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