Not sure if this counts as a photo, but I am going with it. A few weeks back I went to a Scott Kelby Photoshop Seminar with my friend Anke. He showed us a poster he made for his daughter's soccer team that looked like a poster you would buy of your favorite sport's star. I was thinking how smart and creative Scott Kelby is and how lucky that little girl was to have a dad that can do that when - ding-dong - and idea comes to MY head! Why don't I make one of those for Luke on his football team? DUH?
So I made Luke pose for pictures and used my sick Photoshop skills and VIOLA! my Luke looks like the pro football player that he is going to be one day.
I'm going to have it printed and laminated to hang in his room. I'm also going to take it to games to help cheer him on. Size - 16x20
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I've been doing some (okay, a lot of) whining here lately about how stressful and out of control my life has been lately. Yes, it is still stressful and out of control, however, I have taken back control of something. My eating (and drinking). Last Friday I saw a nutritionist to talk about food.
Seriously, my relationship with food is so messed up that if I am not on NutriSystem or WeightWatchers or Smart for Life, I have no idea what to eat. I just lose all control and eat tons of sugar and carbs. This leaves me feeling depressed and lethargic and I, of course, gain weight.
I know that sugar increases your seretonin levels in the brain and makes you feel better for a while, but then you crash and need more. It's like a drug. So I was depressed because of my stress and I would eat chocolate and doughnuts and everything else sweet I could get my hands on and that would make me feel better for a few minutes. Then, I would crash and get depressed that I had so much stress and no energy and weight gain, so I would need my next sugar fix to feel better. It was a vicious cycle.
I already knew this, but I didn't know what to do about it. Should I eat a lot of protein and no carbs? Should I just eat fruits and vegetables? Isn't there sugar in fruit? Is that bad sugar? If I just eat fruits and vegetables where would I get my protein? Don't I need lots of protein?
So, first step:
doctor - just to make sure there is nothing wrong with me and get a starting point ie. glucose level, cholesterol level to measure my success.
next step:
nutritionist - to learn about healthy eating.
She had me start a twelve week program that begins with a 7 day cleanse. This is to help my get rid of all that sugar and alcohol and that stuff that is in Diet Coke. I am in the middle of it right now and I have to say that I am feeling better.
My mood has improved and my energy is better. Now that may be due to the placebo effect of knowing that I am doing something good for my body, but whatever. I'll take it.
I don't think I will forever give up doughnuts and (God forbid!) chocolate. But I must learn to eat them sparingly. I don't feel good when I eat those things. I am learning to eat and make peace with food and my body.
That's why I don't call this a diet. It isn't. I haven't even touched the scale. This is a lifestyle change and it has to work. I can't continue to live the way I was living. I can't have the things I want if I stay in that pattern of self destruction.
I won't talk a whole lot about it on my blog. Who wants to read about what someone is eating unless it is at some fabulous restaurant in London? I'll just give you updates from time to time about how I am doing.
Thanks for you support, Internet. I don't know what I would do without you.
